I Bear Witness

January 8, 2010

Service Dog Euthanized by Heartless Vet Hospital

You may recall the Shiloh Shepherd named Gandolf that rescued the lost boyscout in NC several years ago.
There is another Shiloh Shepherd service dog owner in Rochester, MN. Last night his service dog bloated and needed emergency surgery to save it. He was not allowed to have this surgery because his disabled owner did not have $3000 to pay up front.

Here is the information about this incident and would you please tell me why a disabled citizen lost his service dog to an uncaring emergency vet clinic? I am outraged! I am hoping you’ll be outraged too.

As posted by Tony, the disabled vet who lost his dog. This was posted on the Shiloh Shepherd forum:
“Rebel passed away of bloat at 12am central time (euthanized) at Affiliated Emergency Veterinary Clinic in Rochester, MN (based out of the Twin Cities). But for $3,000 (paid in full upfront before surgery), Rebel would have had a good chance of being saved. I do not have credit cards and this ER vet reagional business does not do payment plans. They have a credit service available if you qualify. My credit is good enough to buy a car; not good enough to save my dog.
Yes, some would say I am to blame since I did not save up enough for this after Casey’s emergency (that vet took payments). Well, I was told that a payment plan was avaiable before I brought him in.
Others would say, You should have had insurance. All the insurances I looked at would have only reimbursed me after I paid up front.
At any rate, Rebel is playing with Casey at Rainbow Bridge. My family, especially me, is devestated. Lessons learned the hard way.

Btw, Rebel bloated on my birthday. It was a good day until then.”

I’m posting this story everywhere. Why couldn’t the hospital give Rebel the surgery and let his worried and upset owner have a little time to pull the money together? Rebel was a SERVICE DOG, after all. What kind of society do we live in? How can something like this happen? How do these individuals look at themselves in the mirror without recoiling in horror at the monsters they’ve become?

May 26, 2009

He’s Gone

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Written on May 13, 2009:
O water, voice of my heart, crying in the sand,
All night long crying with a mournful cry,
As I lie and listen, and cannot understand
The voice of my heart in my side or the voice of the sea,
O water, crying for rest, is it I, is it I?
All night long the water is crying to me.

Unresting water, there shall never be rest
Till the last moon droop and the last tide fail,
And the fire of the end begin to burn in the west;
And the heart shall be weary and wonder and cry like the sea,
All life long crying without avail,
As the water all night long is crying to me.
–Arthur Symons

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This morning while I was working on homework the phone rang. “Hi honey. This is Mom. Talk to your father,” she said. I heard the rustling of the transfer from her to him.
“Hi,” Dad said.
“Hi Dad. I love you. How are you?”
He can’t make sentences that make much sense to the uninitiated, but sometimes (when angels thoughtfully whisper the meanings into my ear) I can understand what he’s trying to say.
“They have me captured here. I want to go home. I don’t know who this lady is,” he tried to say.
“Who is that lady who handed me the phone?” he asked.
“That’s my mom. Her name is JoAnn. She’s your wife.”
“Oh.”
“Dad, are you scared?” I asked.
“So scared,” he said.
I told him I was sorry, that I loved him, that he was the most important person to me in all of my life.
“Really?” he asked.
I told him that I pray for him every day. “I think of you all day long and I worry about you. I want you to know how loved you are.”
He started to cry.
“Hold on, I have to blow my nose.” He blew it loudly right into the phone and we laughed.
For some reason, on this day, May 13, 2009, he knew exactly who I was. (End of re-post)
On May 23, 2009, only ten days later, my father passed away. My brother Wayne was with him. “I wondered while I was standing there staring at his body, ‘Is he standing next to me? Is he floating around in the room? Did he zoom out of here the minute he took his last breath? Where is he? What just happened to him?’”
We are all terrifically sad. He was a wonderful man.

May 2, 2009

Photos

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It’s so good to see my Vati happy with my lovely two kids. I want to keep these right here.

February 25, 2009

Longer Shadows

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Our dog gains almost four pounds a week, can you imagine? She’s a beautiful girl, full of mischief and smart enough so that I have to keep her brain busy. Busy-brained dogs don’t chew up good shoes and that’s important.

In order to keep our valuables intact, I take Chloe the ever-enlarging dog to the dog park on the Edmonds shore. It was windy today. It was cold and windy, very windy. A storm was passing. The low pressure blew through central Puget Sound with abandon. I zipped up my all weather coat and stuffed my hands into deep pockets; settled onto a log to watch the fast-moving clouds.
Chloe has made friends on the beach: Luna, the white German Shepherd, June the Blue Heeler, an Icelandic Shepherd (I’ve forgotten her name), and a half-dozen drooling boxers, a baby pugle, a no-legged long-haired Corgie, and too many black labs to count. The labs and retrievers will swim in icy water to retrieve anything, but the shepherds wisely bark at the ball from the shore. Heelers snap and growl. Pugs have no fear and a whole lot of love.

I can’t get enough of the dogs! I learn something new about their society every time I sit on the beach watching them interact.

Today was a sad day in our family (my human family, not the society of dogs – I switched tracks on you, dear diary). My daughter, my brother, my mother, and my sister-in-law feel the heavy weight of losing someone slowly, cruelly. The doctor’s diagnosis wasn’t good. I don’t want and don’t have time to write about it now because I have to leave in ten minutes to pick Jim up from work.
I stood on the shore watching the sun sink into the fleeing clouds. We’re closing in on spring and the long golden shadows of evening time are my proof. Long shadows, deep blue water capped in foamy white, wind and rain and dramatic entrances of the sun put perspective into the loss. The dogs ran and barked, rolled into each other during mock battles while throwing joy into the cold windy air.
This is all I have time for tonight. Dogs, drool, windy salted air and evening time. Loss, as if time rolls up into itself like the inner curl of a particularly strong Pacific storm. I don’t even know what I’m writing about but here it is. Bah.

January 20, 2009

A New Day

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Three bags of groceries sit in the car and I know I should carry them in, but I’m about to burst with joy and I neeeeeeeeeeeed to write something while I listen to brand new (just released today) music from Fiction Family while bands march and pundits blather on and on and on on MSNBC. This is a fantastic day! Today is the end of eight years of our nation’s nightmare and frankly, dear reader, I don’t give a good golly damn if you disagree with my assessment because I know I write truth and if you don’t believe it, become a ghost 100 years from now and come back to see what the historians say. To quote The Internets, the historians will say, “FAIL!”
And besides (coming back to the groceries in the car), it’s cold outside – possibly as cold as the inside of the fridge, so what does it matter if they sit for a while?
I’ve got some celebrating to do! George Bush and his fellow war criminals are no longer holding the reins and I can breathe a little bit better tonight.
Jim and I woke up early this morning, threw on our clothes and drove to Sally Anne’s house so we could watch the ceremony with friends: Joe and Sally Anne, another couple (the male part of the couple was Sally Anne’s ex-husband, his wife Sally Anne’s good friend), and later that morning a neighbor from across the street came over with a loaf of home made Irish soda bread.
“Can I toast this?” Sally Anne asked.
We are America. Sally Anne and Joe live in an upper class neighborhood on a hill overlooking Lake Washington. They’re not far from the freeway and close enough to Seattle. We live a few minutes away from them in a tiny little town developed fifty years ago for Korean veterans, big yards full of huge hemlock trees and small cinder block houses. Our house has been remodeled and although small, is trendy and comfortable. Most of the houses in our little town are a little run down. One man from our group works for Boeing, a blue-collar job, and a machinist’s union member. His wife (me) is unemployed, laid off and having a rough time finding a job although she’s enjoying the down time and feels it’s helped her remember what matters to her.
Sally Anne’s ex is retired. His wife is bubbly and dear. Joe, Sally Anne’s second and much-better husband, designs yacht interiors and is quick to explain that even the very rich stopped spending money on yacht interiors and his work has dried up. Sally Anne worked with Joe before the work disappeared and their neighbor from across the street is also unemployed just like me. Out of seven two are unemployed and two are self-employed with nothing coming in.
Are there any mathematicians here? Percentages?
We ate bagels this morning, paper-thin slices of cold ham, assorted cheeses, strawberries and other fresh fruits. We drank coffee and wept for joy.
Not everyone is happy and I understand, but really – seriously – even if it only lasts for a day, I don’t really care.

Praise song for the day.
Each day we go about our business, walking past each other, catching each others’ eyes or not, about to speak or speaking. All about us is noise. All about us is noise and bramble, thorn and din, each one of our ancestors on our tongues. Someone is stitching up a hem, darning a hole in a uniform, patching a tire, repairing the things in need of repair.
Someone is trying to make music somewhere with a pair of wooden spoons on an oil drum with cello, boom box, harmonica, voice.
A woman and her son wait for the bus.
A farmer considers the changing sky; A teacher says, “Take out your pencils. Begin.”
We encounter each other in words, words spiny or smooth, whispered or declaimed; words to consider, reconsider.
We cross dirt roads and highways that mark the will of someone and then others who said, “I need to see what’s on the other side; I know there’s something better down the road.”
We need to find a place where we are safe; We walk into that which we cannot yet see.
Say it plain, that many have died for this day. Sing the names of the dead who brought us here, who laid the train tracks, raised the bridges, picked the cotton and the lettuce, built brick by brick the glittering edifices they would then keep clean and work inside of.
Praise song for struggle; praise song for the day. Praise song for every hand-lettered sign; The figuring it out at kitchen tables.
Some live by “Love thy neighbor as thy self.”
Others by first do no harm, or take no more than you need.
What if the mightiest word is love, love beyond marital, filial, national. Love that casts a widening pool of light. Love with no need to preempt grievance.
In today’s sharp sparkle, this winter air, anything can be made, any sentence begun.
On the brink, on the brim, on the cusp — praise song for walking forward in that light. – Elizabeth Alexander

December 1, 2008

Gently

Sadie draws in the window.

Sadie draws in the window.

The late afternoon is darkening into evening and just like I feel every year, I mourn the sun and decide to light candles against these dreadfully dark late afternoons. They are seldom “dreadful” as long as I embrace the dark but I prefer the lightness of summer afternoons. “I already long for springtime,” I sighed over coffee with a friend today. She is a California native like me. “I do too,” she said. We shared a moment of silence for our loss and moved on to sunnier subjects such as politics and the economy.

The house is quiet this evening. Jim is at work. The dogs are sleeping. Beautiful folkster Denison Witmer is lulling me into a mellow mood, but I know there’s work ahead. I want to work (just enough for a dent) on what will someday become my studio.

This Witmer song makes me stop; appreciating the message. Listening:

this is what it’s like
finding your feet again
the part of you that couldn’t
finally thinks you can

you’re taking off some time to do this
a small apartment bedroom rearranged
to know that you are loved
you’re finding your feet again
the part of you that couldn’t
finally thinks you can

a brownstone on a street in brooklyn
the light tier flash from temperature to time
and people do the same
you’re falling alseep again
part of you a dreamer
and part of you is dreamt

and you said…

go now in the light of your god
go now in the love of your god
go now in the peace of your god
go now in the joy of your god

I take that small voice and hold it for a moment, considering. I am a dreamer. I am dreamt. I am loved and I love and it’s my aim to love with more intention. I like that, even if it does sound a little too much like psycho-babble. Remember, dear diary, Hallmark commercials make me cry. I am a sucker for sappy.

I met a dear friend for coffee this morning while my husband slept. She gave me the first 100+ pages of the first draft of a novel that won’t let her go. “I’m obsessed with it,” she explained. I’m not a good editor, but I know a few and she knows them too. I can appreciate a good story, though. I can find holes, ask questions, suggest what most normal readers would want to know, so I’ll read her draft with that in mind. It’s an honor to be trusted with a friend’s first draft.

This little blog entry needs to end so I can:
Do the dishes and throw out unused craft books and supplies that I’ll never use. Eat dinner. Get two loads of laundry done (and put away – a stumbling block for me). Fill out a form I’m supposed to bring to a non-optional afternoon class. Then? Nothing. That’s all I’m asking myself to do today.

Coming soon: Cloud thinking and what that means to me (and people like me) and you know you’re out there. Come out of the woodwork! Let’s talk.

November 18, 2008

Life

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    Jim’s mom’s surgery went fine, but we learned that the cancer is advanced and advanced kidney cancer is a mofo. We are reeling. One foot in front of the other foot, nice little careful steps and before you know it, you’ve walked from there to here. Jim and I slept fitfully. I needed to feel the warmth of his skin all night long. Touchstone. Rock. Beloved man.

I have over a million words locked inside of my head, but my fingers don’t feel like writing them down.

A lemon-scented whirlpool bath will help. I’m making a beer/cheese fondue for Jim. We’ll dip artisan bread, carrots, apples, and celery tonight. He’ll get home from work a few minutes before midnight. I’ll have a fire. Candles.

I wandered through Bed, Bath & Beyond this afternoon and wept (but nobody saw). “This is everyday stuff,” I thought and hoped she’ll have many chances to do these little things she loves, but I’m not sure…

“I don’t feel done,” she cried yesterday. “I have more things I want to do.”

November 2, 2008

This is the year!

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October 22, 2008

Dietrich Bonhoeffer

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We have been silent witnesses of evil deeds: we have been drenched by many storms; we have learnt the arts of equivocation and pretence; experience has made us suspicious of others and kept us from being truthful and open; intolerable conflicts have worn us down and even made us cynical. Are we still of any use? – Dietrich Bonhoeffer

A few years ago my husband and I watched a moving documentary about one of my heroes, Dietrich Bonhoeffer. If you aren’t familiar with his name, I’ll explain him in my own basic words (with apologies to historians everywhere). Mr. Bonhoeffer lived in Germany during the rise of Hitler. He was the son of a prominent professor and an intelligent, university educated mother, a well-respected family. He was a member of the main protestant church in Germany, the Evangelical Church and he was a pastor. During the rise of Nazism, he lived in America, visiting churches and learning volumes from American black churches. He returned to Germany in 1939 stating, “I have come to the conclusion that I made a mistake in coming to America. . . I shall have no right to take part in the restoration of Christian life in Germany after the war unless I share the trials of this time with my people.”

And that’s when the streusel hit the fan for Dietrich Bonhoeffer. He became a Nazi resister and earned the ire of many, if not most, of his heretofore devout church friends, friends who believed that patriotism was linked to godliness, and who allowed their churches to become part of the Nazi agenda.

Jim and I watched the documentary, watched interviews with people who lived through that era, watched film of Hitler’s rousing speeches. We heard men and women explain how they were “taken in” because of Hitler’s rousing promises of a better life for them, the superior race.
Bonhoeffer was killed for his resistance, of course.

The SS doctor who witnessed Bonhoeffer’s death later described him as a man “devout . . . brave and composed. His death ensued after a few seconds . . . I have hardly ever seen a man die so entirely submissive to the will of God.” Bonhoeffer sent a message to his friend George Bell that said, “This is the end, for me the beginning of life.”

All of that is to say this: two people had a justifiably strong reaction to my evocation of the idea of Hitler in my last essay. One person is a personal friend and one is someone I’ve never met. Both writers made excellent points.

Cathy wrote, You had me agreeing with every single word until Hitler made an appearance. I understand what you’re saying and I think that I agree with you, but I think that Jack (the first commenter) was right on.

I read just earlier this week about Godwin’s law. Here’s a little snippet from the conversation:

‘By 2007, The Economist had declared that “a good rule in most discussions is that the first person to call the other a Nazi automatically loses the argument.” And in October 2007, the “Last Page” columnist in The Smithsonian stated that when an adversary uses an inappropriate Hitler or Nazi comparison, “you have only to say ‘Godwin’s Law’ and a trapdoor falls open, plunging your rival into a pool of hungry crocodiles.”‘

I really, really like what you have to say – and I agree with you. Just be careful with the Hitler analogy. I think that you’ll lose some people once you bring him into your argument.

Using the name “Hitler” is a conversation stopper. Cathy is right. My grandmother used to do this kind of thing to me.
“I prayed for you last night and God told me you shouldn’t wear your skirts that short,” she’d say.

It’s hard to argue with God, or at least it’s hard to argue with an old country Lithuanian grandmother who believes she speaks for God. It’s also unfair and dangerous to pull Hitler into any conversation about today’s politics. I was wrong.

Even so, I am suspicious of the GOP’s recent demagoguery and I hope you are too.
This quote: If you tell a lie big enough and keep repeating it, people will eventually come to believe it. is often, especially on the Internet, attributed to Karl Rove, but actually Joseph Goebbels said it.

Think about that.

October 8, 2008

On my Car

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